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Hitting the rocks of heavy emotions or vibrations

Posted by on Jul 5, 2013 in abraham hicks, alignement, Nonduality, Self-Enquiry, Uncategorized, vibrations | 0 comments

photo1bIt is natural, of course, that when we seek alignment with our Source, that sometimes we hit the ‘rocks’. The rocks are the old sense of personal identity which surface from time to time. These ‘rocks’ actually show us that we are on the correct path, otherwise we wouldn’t be aware of them. However, vibrationally it is not a good place to stay in because it can really lead to us getting stuck.

But firstly, we need to spend a short time releasing these feelings , because it is necessary to let go of resistance. If you need to really cry or scream, just do it, but DO NOT ADD THOUGHT TO IT.
AFTER, you have allowed yourself to let go of the emotions, then you can write down thoughts that you genuinely believe, so that you can take yourself across the bridge to much more positive feelings, or ‘vibrations’. For example:
1.) Although I feel sore, and ‘heavy’ , I know that this too will pass, because I have seen it pass many, many times before.
2.)Who is it that is really in pain anyway? So, ‘who’ will the pain pass FOR?
3.) I know that there is no person who is in pain because I AM pure Being, and my actual Being is incapable of feeling pain. So any pain that is being experienced are just remainders and reminders of past conditioning – of believing I am a separate identity. I dont need to keep ‘meeting up with’ these old thoughts, because they know longer resonate with who I now know myself to be. If I see one of those old thoughts or beliefs appearing, I can immediately run in completely the other direction. And, I know that it is only when I think I am separate, that I feel pain. If I feel lonely, sad or discouraged, it is just a false belief of being separate from the whole.
4.) I choose to feel better and I can do this right now by closing my eyes and spending 15 minutes just simply sensing the ‘I’ of my Being.

‘You’ are free right NOW and when you are back in Alignement with what IS, such a peace comes flooding back.

Also, I saw a brilliant little video today, which is particularly useful if you are giving yourself a hard time about faults you think you have, or if you are doing far too much ‘weeding of your garden’ – weeding your own ‘garden’ for ‘stuff’. The minute you watch this, I think you will feel a real relaxing and releasing. I hope you enjoy it:

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See It NOW : Seeking v. LOOKING

Posted by on Mar 20, 2013 in Nonduality, Self-Enquiry | 2 comments

If you think of yourself as a ‘seeker’, you will be seeking all your life, because a ‘seeker’ seeks for something.
Instead, ‘ know thyself’ as a ‘looker’ – not looking for something, but looking AT, that which has never been lost.

From this perspective everything takes a 360 degree turn-around -instantly!
You are no longer ‘seeking for’, which subjects you to a life of looking outside yourself for Home’, instead you are looking directly AT ‘home’.

THE SEEKER: continually looks for the next teacher, the next book, video, audio, Satsang, practice, or ‘Nonduality Club’ where just the right phrase or sentence could possibly be heard that changes everything and suddenly brings about Liberation.
There is nothing wrong with this of course, and it cannot be helped anyway, BUT, so often this becomes an addiction to seeking, an obsession, as it also provides a great social life, or in the case of a ‘Silent Retreat’, a break from the ‘real world’. It may be fun, relaxing, or ‘take you out of yourself’ for a while but if allowed to go on too long, it actually becomes just another ‘comfort-zone’ keeping you trapped in the world of ‘pointers’ and never actually arriving.

THE LOOKER: looks at what they are already. Simple as that. They have made a decision to end all these years of looking for just the right ‘pointer’ from just the right teacher, and they have given up the search in favour of looking inwards, not outwards. Then they discover there was never anything outside anyway. It’s all been a hoax.

What is meant by ‘looking at?’ Looking at what?
It simply means looking directly at the pure awareness that you are, without the ‘you’ that you think you are. In other words, present sounds, sights, smells, tastes and feelings, both physical and emotional, none of which has ever come via matter – such as ears, eyes, body etc. It is only awareness, your pure aliveness that supplies your consciousness with all this information. It was never ‘you’ the person. And here is a great quote from Mary Baker Eddy : ‘ I – dentity is not an ‘entity’.

So now you are a ‘looker’ – looking AT. ‘ Regard’ is the French word for ‘ to look’ . You can only ‘ Regard’ or LOOK AT what is there already. But if you think it’s not there, if you feel you’ve lost something, then you are back into ‘seeking’ – seeking to find it again.
So take up this suggestion: Stop seeking for and start looking AT . Believe me when I tell you that this changes everything, as I said earlier, a complete 360 degree turn-around.

Whenever you notice thoughts roaring, allow them to roar but neutralise yourself from their magnetic pull – STOP being interested and simply notice their underlying vibrational current. Notice sounds, sights, bodily sensations, including those thought-currents, and then you are staring right AT pure awareness. If you are washing-up, stare at the hands in the sink. If you are tying on the computer, watch that. Better still, sit for a minute, or as long as you are able and notice everything. That which notices, is ‘you’ AS pure awareness, aliveness.

Aliveness is what you are, or else how is it possible for you to walk around without WIRES??? It is LIFE that is walking itself. LIFE that is hearing, feeling and seeing ITSELF.
So LOOK AT IT! Not outside of it. You will never see anything ‘ outside’ because that would mean it would have to be outside of your awareness, which is impossible because if you are not aware of it, then it cannot exist.

All this might sound like a very subtle change, but the emphasis on looking at rather than seeking for is Paramount and the difference between seeing and not seeing.

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Posted by on Feb 26, 2013 in Nonduality, Self-Enquiry | 0 comments

“Silence is the key to everything. Everything is answered by remaining silent, because only when we become aware of silence do we become aware of true Self. Adyashanti is 100% correct when he says: “the appropriate self-enquiry question arises out of awareness, not out of thinking”.

And we can always know if it is the right question: if it leads us directly back to silence. On the subtlest level, when we are lost in thought, there is definite contraction that can be felt inwardly and also ‘outwardly’ in a tensing of muscles around the eyes and face. When we are aware and thought-free, there is expansion and an immediate relaxing. And whatever we are doing, saying or involved in, the pure ground of our being, which is Silence, is always present amidst the noise and the action.
That which is witnessing, is I AM, pure awareness, and beyond that, is the witness of the witness. Enquiring into this is impossible for the mind, as it is beyond the mind.
The question: ‘ Can the see-er Itself be seen?’ When this question is ‘dropped in’, our enquiry goes very deep, and then this question acts like a tool that reveals something – or rather REMOVES something – this question, contemplated deeply, will eventually remove all the obstacles to clear-seeing, which is why Mooji calls it ‘ the Piranha question. It is as though the Light if your awareness touches another light – it is in fact Awareness, aware of Itself, and is of course, the same Light.”

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Posted by on Feb 20, 2013 in Nonduality, Self-Enquiry | 4 comments

The strongest addiction, a million times more addictive than alcohol, heroin or any drug known to man, is thinking. You know this already. However we lose consciousness of this fact throughout the day all the time. You may’ve listened to many teachers say it. But have you really heard it so it sinks in?

Right now, become acutely conscious of this addiction because it is the most dangerous addiction of all, and everybody suffers from it. I’m not talking here about thoughts. There is a subtle difference between naturally arising thoughts that perpetually come and go, and the think-er.
Thoughts in themselves are harmless and we dont need to be afraid of them. It is the purchasing of thoughts that create a vicious train of thoughts within which we become entangled, like in a spider’s web.
But can we really stop getting pulled in? Yes, definitely, with practice and a bit of initial effort, which eventually becomes effort-less. Truly realising you are an addict, addicted to thinking will dramatically increase your awareness of the think-ing habit. As in every addict’s experience,the first step is in genuinely recognising and then admitting to oneself, the addiction.

Here’s are two examples from my own experiences. This first one is when I was an unconscious thought-addict.
I’d had a major knee operation and was living alone. I was in the kitchen and trying to get something out of a low cupboard. Everything fell out at once, and it was agony trying to put it all back and a slow business. Following this, the frustration caused spillages whilst making a hot drink, caused by more objects flying out of the cupboard above. I screamed with huge frustration, and then sat down and cried about how hard it was to manage all by myself, and then I bought into an ever-lasting chain of ‘poor me’ thoughts that carried on throughout the day.

The second experience was very similar, but with one marked difference: I was now a conscious ex-addict, so there was an instant recognition of the thoughts up ‘For Sale’ and a natural ability to drop any temptation to ‘buy’ and be pulled in that direction:

Owning to severe hip-problems, practical living had become very challenging. Trying to take a mug from a cupboard above, everything fell out.
Then I spilt some milk. Finally, trying to put something back into a lower cupboard, everything fell out of that one too! So I decided to scream big-time and let it all go, but straight afterwards in one quick instant, I noticed a miserable thought racing head-long towards me combined with a compulsion to race towards IT and ‘buy’ it, but I also immediately saw, and with crystal-clarity, that this was indeed pure addiction to my next miserable thought, just like an addict might have for their next ‘fix’. I didn’t buy it and instead, just sat down with the underlying vibration of the feeling, and let it pass, which it did in a matter of seconds. This was followed by comfort and peace. Previously, I would’ve sunk into the ‘poor me, I cant manage’ kind of thinking. But without adding thoughts to feelings, there is no fuel being added to the fire and so even ‘sad’ feelings fade in a matter of moments.
Freedom does not mean that sad or bad feelings don’t arise, it just means they can’t stay around. There’s no-where for them to ‘hang their hat’.

And this is the only difference between a so-called Sage or Master and a ‘seeker': these guys know the addictive nature of thought, have seen through them and ignore them, till required. They are no longer in the market for ‘buying’.

Are you still buying? Have you been ‘in denial’ about being an addict?
Humility, can bring real breakthrough which can only occur when we come out of denial. Like for any addict, the first step, is seeing this fundamental truth. And the first step is also the last step and vice-verca, as there are no steps. ‘Seeing’ is always happening in this very moment. No-one has ever taken their last step- this can never happen. If you think you have taken your last step or ever hear anyone say that they have, bang goes humility and that really is the end – but not in a good way! It ends any hope of ever becoming an ex thought-addict, because Ego, which is just elevated self-belief, supplies increasing fuel to the fire of ‘being a person’ which equates with a very busy mind.
Something that can be guaranteed is this: every single time you resist the huge temptation to buy a thought – either a miserable OR a positive thought (as thoughts can quickly go either way) – there is a reward. There is! That which rewards you is that which you ARE beyond thought: God – the I AM of your perfect Being. When you stop ‘buying’, especially buying the temptation to get deep down and thoroughly miserable, a gap – a space- is created through which God can be tangibly felt. Peace can get in. In fact Peace was never ‘out’ since Peace is the bottom line – the real ‘you’.

So once this addiction to thinking is truly seen through and there is real awareness of it as a very real addiction, then the tendency to get pulled into it gradually lessens as the compulsion to ‘purchase’ is seen too quickly to take hold.
And there-in lies the Freedom that everyone is talking about and searching so hard for. It comes down to this one pure thing: becoming an ex thought-addict.

And just before I get loads of comments about ‘suppression’, we are not talking here about ‘suppressing’ anything . We are not trying to squash anything down or ‘sit on our hands’.
For instance if someone dies who we care deeply about, or if anything sad, upsetting or shocking happens, indeed we will grieve. We feel the feelings, dive deeply into the underlying vibrations and literally ‘ feel it out’. We don’t however need to add words to the feelings – it is far more effective and authentic to simply feel. But if a roar of thoughts arise immediately following the feelings, we must investigate: ‘Who is the me who is thinking this? Or: ‘To whom do these thoughts arise?’ Or ‘Where am I?’
It is only these type of investigative questions that leads us back to spaciousness, to the peace of ‘no-body home’, to who we really are beyond thought. If a question leads only to another thought, just drop it and keep quiet.

So in summary, recognise and admit the addiction. See it so sharply that eventually this witnessing arises at exactly the right time: observing the beginnings of a thought-chain coming racing towards you! The minute you notice it, even (and especially) if it’s half-way through a thought-chain – DON’T BUY IT and eventually, there WIILL be a switch-over from person to Presence.

The result? Freedom. Thoughts will never go away and that is not the object. They are very useful of course when we need to think through any project, but other than that, they will become like a gentle vibrating frequency in the background of life. We let them buzz gently without listening to what they are buzzing about.

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Addressing Physical Pain

Posted by on Dec 22, 2012 in Nonduality, Self-Enquiry | 2 comments

No matter what anyone says, as long as we are living a human experience and have a body, (no matter how ‘apparent’) , there will be aches, pains and diseases. I myself have Chronic Arthritis all over my body and in fact am going to have a Hip Replacement in April.

Ramana Maharshi died of cancer, and there is no teacher or Sage on this earth who hasn’t encountered disease or pain, and we all die of something. Even Mary Baker Eddy who founded Christian Science and whom Louise Hay was a student of in her early life, was also was in extreme pain for the latter part of her life. And Mrs. Eddy she was a great advocate of ‘ we have no body for we are Spiritual in substance’.

When we know ourself as I AM – pure Being and not ‘ little me’ , we see that pain is simply happening for no-one. In other words its not personal. This understanding that nothing is personal is tremendously important. The pain that is being felt – is simply felt – it is not being SUFFERED. There has to be a very strong sense of the personal to feel that ‘ you’ are suffering. Suffering has to be CAUSED. But no-one has caused you to suffer and you haven’t caused yourself to suffer by any kind of wrong thinking. Thinking by its very nature is always wrong, that’s why Self-Enquiry is so important to do because it takes us directly to the I Am of our Being, bypassing thought, till eventually thoughts are completely seen through and the stories are no longer ‘purchased’ by us.

If we go into thought itself by trying to investigate what thoughts we are having that is causing our suffering, we simply induce more thought.

My greatest joy is freedom from the mind and anything else that occurs, even pain is completely fine. There is no longer any need to change the situation because there is no one ‘suffering’ but pain still happens, but its more seen as sensation because it remains un-judged – there’s simply no drama. And this same seeing is available to you too and that is why I strongly recommend Self-Enquiry practice, because it is only through looking directly at Source, (God, Being) that we see that we already ARE that.

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Self Enquiry

Posted by on Nov 28, 2012 in Nonduality, Self-Enquiry | 0 comments

When people start ‘Self-Enquiring’, they can find themselves tangled back up in the mind by getting themselves confused with all the different types of questions various teachers, (including myself), have guided them to use.

Questions such as: ‘ I AM’ or ‘ Who am I?’ & ‘ To whom are these thoughts arising? Or ‘ ‘Who is the thinker?’ etc.

These are all great questions , but if you try and think of them all at once then confusion sets in and a busy mind. This of course defeats the whole object of enquiring.

Basically, keep quiet and when a thought arises, just see if an enquiry question naturally appears and go with that. The result should be immediate and lead straight back to spaciousness, and this is the CRUCIAL thing. If the question you’ve asked DOESN’T lead back to spaciousness, but instead leads to another thought – then drop it immediately and just keep quiet. Eventually, this will lead to an automatic dropping of thoughts, and the magnetic pull of all the stories are seen through before they have a chance to ‘bite’ and take hold. This is assured.

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